I created this blog to document my cancer journey. I haven't been diagonosed yet, but told that I have a precancerous abnormality in my uterus.
Let's start at the beginning. If you're uncomfortable reading about menstrual cycles and female reproductive organs, you'll want to stop reading here.
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I have had problems with my cycle for as long as I can remember. I've gone months at a time without bleeding, then I'd bleed for weeks at a time. Well, it got out of control earlier this year. I bled all of February, March, and all but one week in April. I finally sucked up my fear and went to the gynecologist. This set up a chain reaction of issues. I had a severe anxiety attack at the gynecologist's office, which spiked my blood pressure to dangerous levels. I was put on blood pressure medication as well as Xanax for my anxiety. I then found out that my "high blood pressure" was actually caused by the fact that the heavy bleeding had triggered severe anemia. For example, ones hemoglobins should be at a 15. Mine was at a 7. Then after a lot of blood work and an internal ultrasound, it was found that I had an EXTREMELY thick endometrium. So I had to have surgery. The surgery was performed on June 7th of this year. I had a D&C, hysteroscopy, and a myosure. After the surgery, I was assured that everything had gone as expected, everything looked good and that I should start getting my period as normal. It has now been 2 months since I last bled.
Therein lies the bad. I got a call from my gynecologist's office asking to push up my appointment. I didn't want to freak out but I felt like something was wrong. I took the first appointment I could get, June 21st. I'll never forget the date because it was such a hectic time at work with Costco going live. I knew something was wrong the minute my doctor walked in. She looked solemn. You know the feeling when the room closing in on you and all the air leaves the room. That happened when she told me what was going on.
I have an abnormal growth in the lining of my uterus. Right now they're calling it precancerous. I've been referred to an oncologist. I'll be seeing him on July 8th. I've also been referred to a fertility clinic because it's likely that they might have to take my uterus out, meaning that I'll never be able to carry my own children.
I sobbed for 2 days.
Now I feel completely numb.
I also have to lose a lot of weight because the extra estrogen in my fat cells is helping the abnormal growth, grow even more.
So a lot will be changing with me in the next couple months. In the mean time, I sit trapped in my head because I feel completely isolated.
